My obsession over losing weight every day during my weight loss journey

Hi Everyone.

This is Nagendra.

Today I want to talk about one of the side effects of losing weight, especially too quickly.

I lost 20 kg’s within 4 months and I obsessed over losing weight daily.

While I started my weight loss journey, I used YouTube to figure out many weight loss tools.

Some among them are Calorie Deficit, Intermittent Fasting, Weighing Daily, Exercise, 10,000 steps a day, watching weight loss success stories over the internet.

I’ve already shared my views on Calorie Deficit and Intermittent Fasting.

Just to be brief, being in Calorie Deficit is the ultimate tool to lose weight and I hated Intermittent Fasting.

The next important tool I want to discuss about was weighing myself daily.

The actual advice was to weigh myself daily, to see whether I was losing weight by the end of the week when compared to what I had been at the start of the week.

What I was doing during my weigh in was that I focused on watching my weight drop day by day, irrespective of whether it was strength training day, which doesn’t burn much calories by the way, or whether it was a freaking rest day.

Initially, I used Time Ferris Slow Carb Method to lose 8 kg of my weight. I almost lost half a kg per day and every day and I felt good about it.

But after 5 weeks into my weight loss journey, I was no longer losing weight.

I ignored it at first.

When I didn’t lose weight for the next couple of days in a row as well, I knew that something was off.

I didn’t know about the concept of calories or calorie deficit at that time and I was so frustrated at myself that I hated myself.

I tried everything I could to burn more calories.

I usually set a goal of walking 10,000 steps daily to help myself burn more calories. But I started to walk more, like between 15,000 steps to 25,000 steps, till my knees ached and I couldn’t perform much at my actual exercise.

When I couldn’t do it for much longer, I started to work out twice daily. I lost a little bit of weight at first. But as days progressed, I noticed that I felt lethargic throughout the rest of the day, my body aching as hell and not working out with as much intensity on both the workouts.

I lost a little bit of weight at first. But as days progressed, I noticed that I felt lethargic throughout the rest of the day, my body aching as hell and not working out with as much intensity on both the workouts.

I was back to not losing weight.

I was Working from Home during that time. Since I started to work out twice daily, I didn’t have much energy left for doing office work. Since it was WFH, I was able to lie down on bed or slouching in it and do the work, but even I was irritated at that.

When any issues related to work comes, I was irritated at them some of the times. My mood seeping into my talks with my colleagues.

They understood and it helped me a little bit to continue pushing through the rest of the day.

I was even irritated to talk with my friends during those days. I was staying alone, all my roommates left for their hometown two days before the lockdown in Mumbai and I was scared to travel.

I was staying alone, all my roommates left for their hometown two days before the lockdown in Mumbai.

Even when talking to my family, it was worse. They were used to me being moody over the years, but I felt like I was way over the top this time.

I was not sleeping properly and it didn’t helped me even a little bit.

I worried that I would not lose weight anymore, that I would go back to being overweight and feeling more depressed.

I realized now that I was obsessing over losing weight daily. It was not a healthy habit.

It was worse when I started to check my weight multiple times of the day, usually at the start of the day, before workout, after workout, end of the day and randomly a couple of times throughout the day.

My mood depended on whether I was losing weight or not.

I work in shifts and Night Shifts are worse. I had alternate week night shifts and it only fuelled my depression, frustration and obsession over weight loss.

During my day shift days, I would eat normally. Not eating anything during the night, since I was somewhat sleeping.

But during the night shifts days, I had to eat something during the shifts. Otherwise, I was hungry as hell and getting irritated.

I hated to starve myself and it was the reason why I hated Intermittent Fasting.

So, I ate something during the night shifts I was working and my usual weight-in time was between 5 am to 6 am.

During my normal shifts, my weight would drop.

During my night shifts, since I ate during the shift, my weight would increase a little bit, compared to normal shift days.

It’s been a long time since I observed my obsession over weight loss during my weigh-ins. I am still struggling to control it.

Since few days, I need to work from office. It was mostly night-shifts and am struggling to adjust to it. I was no longer obsessing over it though.

The solution I am implementing to combat my obsession was by no longer weighting myself multiple times daily.

I weigh myself only once daily.

There were couple of times during the day during which I missed weighing myself. Like when I felt sleepy and tired as hell after my night shift and as soon as I reach my room, I sleep.

I didn’t let it bother much.

I look at my weight at the start of the week and end of the week. I will see whether there is a drop in my weight or not. Rest of the weigh-ins are just guideposts. Besides, I am just a couple of kg away from my goal weight and I realized that the rate at which I lose my weight would be less now.

Rest of the weigh-ins are just guideposts. Besides, I am just a couple of kg away from my goal weight and I realized that the rate at which I lose my weight would be less now.

I accepted the fact that my weight remains same or even increase a little bit during my strength training days and rest days.

I talked with my family more about this and it helped me a lot.

I apologized when I realized that I was being moody or irritated at them just because I was not losing the weight or slept less.

As I mentioned in my previous posts, writing is like a therapy to me. It would help me deal with stress in the life as I enjoy writing so much. I decided to put my struggles, my likes, my observations and many other things I was facing in my life into words and publish it as a blog post as much as possible.

I decided to put my struggles, my likes, my observations and many other things I was facing in my life into words and publish it as a blog post as much as possible.

I hope this works and I would let you know the same within few days.

What about you?

How are you dealing with your personal projects, whether it might be losing weight or writing book or any other thing.  What challenges you are facing and how you are coping with it.

What are your thoughts on this post?

Comment it.

If you liked the post, consider following me. I would post contents similar to this regularly.

Until then, goodbye.

Regards,

Nagendra Kumar Yadav T.

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